My sleep paralysis has returned & I don’t even wanna go to sleep anymore. 🤦🏽 ♀ it’s been everytime I try to sleep for 3…

Sometimes not all the time though, this experience was very awful it was like I never fell asleep I was glancing at my phone but the room seemed dark, my 3 year old was still bouncing around the room watching cartoons just playing with her toys..I got up to pull the curtains back from our big window and I kid you not it was nothing but blackness on the outside of the house so thick you could not see through it, it looked as though snow or some sparkling substances was floating in air but not collecting anywhere I was terrified I then sat down and realized my 9 year old was next to me and this is when I was triggered that I was actually in sleep paralysis so I started screaming wake me up please just wake me up her face went really demonic so I turned to my 3 year old and she ran over and was shaking me but it wasn’t working nothing was working I was so scared because I couldn’t escape it’s like I would start to come out of it but I kept getting pulled back in then I heard voices saying she’s to strong we should just leave and maybe a minute of calmness passed and I woke up 😩🤦🏽‍♀️😔.

reading this scared the hell out of me so I can only imagine how you felt at the time 😫 these experiences really stay with you and ply in your mind don’t they 😞 I seem to get them if I fall asleep on my back , the last one I had I felt like I was dying I still believe I was dying and some how got saved if I didn’t wake up I would have been dead. I was choking I couldn’t breathe I was trying to get up then I saw myself get up and try to open my bedroom door but I just saw myself dying and my jaw just opened wide and was all black and I saw flashes of scary shit my ears started popping like my brain was coming out of them, my heart felt like it was being pulled down to my feet , my legs were all tingly. I woke up just before I died. It’s hard to work out what’s real and not at the time! The time before that someone was trying to break in my room and was banging my door down and was outside banging the window, I couldn’t get up to stop them coming in I was just stuck I remember trying to call for help but my voice wasn’t working and I couldn’t move. I wonder what causes this it’s distressing x

I wish they had sleep studies because I’d be the first to sign up it’s so real at the time that like you said it’s hard to tell things apart