Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

just feel super depressed. literally in tears right now. nothing I do or say seems to be going right. sometimes I wished I would've killed myself years ago when I had the chance. I'm sorry if this depresses you :(

Ugh!

I'm so cranky right now I can't even take myself. I just told Spongebob to shut the f up. I could use a gondola ride to some pub right about now ?

induction

I'm being induced right now!! I already got the first dose of cytotec placed inside me. I currently have back pain and I'm starting to get nervous!!

My MIL hasn't been here at all my whole pregnancy, but now that I'm close to giving birth she wants to demand to be there. Yeah right. I think I'm asking pretty freaking nice to respect my decision. I'm in my right, aren't I?