Me and my husband signed up for a gym membership together...has free childcare while you work…

I haven’t been depressed to your extent but going to the gym could possibly help with your depression and stress.

I hope you pull through your depression and put it in its place ❤️

I understand how u feel 💯 that's all I want most of the time and it's the hardest thing to pull yourself out of because I have tried and it ain't easy!!!

I'm so sorry you're going through this! I struggled with depression from childhood up until I was about 29. I got better until I turned 36. Then I started having health issues a couple years ago & I fell right back into it. Currently i'm doing well, but I understand the struggle and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Has this been something ongoing throughout your life? Or could it be postpartum depression? I know you mentioned previously takings meds, but do you talk to anyone about it...doctors or a therapist? It's nearly impossible for a person to understand unless they've experienced it... try to remember that when your husband isn't being understanding. And remember that it's difficult for him too, to see you like this and not be able to fix it. Think of how you feel when your kids are sick and you can't do anything to fix it, that's probably how he feels & it can get frustrating. Just let him know that you need him to be there for you and comfort you. Try to explain to him that this is not a choice...you aren't choosing to be depressed, it's not something you can control. It's an actual medical condition just like any other sickness. I know there is nothing I can say to make you feel better, but just know that you're not alone. You should definitely go back on your medication and find/continue talking to someone. Don't give up trying to get better... remember that you are needed & loved. ❤🤗 *Hugs*

Don't beat yourself up because depression crept it's way back in, you have just had a baby... there are some major hormonal changes going on that could take a while to balance. I know from my own experience, mental health problems make your brain extra sensitive to these changes and no man could possibly understand just how much hormones mess with your wellbeing. Shit, they are responsible for your mood, appetite, sleep and your ability to think and reason. I don't think women generally recognise what hormonal beings we are and how difficult all these changes are. Be kind to yourself, give yourself permission to rest, but if you can, even light exercise could be the boost you need. I would tell your partner specifically what you need. Sometimes you really have to spell it out. It is amazing that you have been doing so well for so long without antidepressants and I think you should give yourself credit for that!