Today I caved. I spent all day at home alone with MJ. She wouldn’t sleep. She just cluster fed and…
Today I caved.
I spent all day at home alone with MJ. She wouldn’t sleep. She just cluster fed and played all day. I love how active she is but sometimes even with sleep I feel like I just need a break. After I breast fed her for the last time and she finally fell asleep, I grabbed a cigarette and after a full year of cold turkey, I smoked.
I feel so guilty but it felt so nice. 😭I’ve been filling the void with positive outlets and still.... I couldn’t help it.
To be honest the only reason the house is empty today is because my grandma is in the hospital and everyone is there but me.
My SO would not be happy.
I’ve been so good until now.
Bri·
I know how you feel, I also quit cold turkey when I found out I was pregnant, and have been craving one so bad since my son was born. Don’t stress, or beat yourself up over it. Congratulate yourself for how far you have come! Don’t dwell on this small set back, accept it and move forward with your goal 💙.