Ugh, I've been so depressed lately with just everything going on and this house is so overwhelming…

Ugh, I've been so depressed lately with just everything going on and this house is so overwhelming and although my husband helps so much with cleaning and what not, I feel so lazy and blah that I can't get myself to get up and do something (other than the things I do for my kids). I feel so tired, I want to cry my eyes out I'm so heart broken but I feel so guilty with those little faces staring at me so I just hold it in.... which inevitably gets thrown at my dear sweet beloved husband and he just takes it, i just feel so horrible.

So first thing tomorrow I'm going to give my dr a call and agree to get on antidepressants, although I know I need to cry and let it out, I'm hoping this'll help a little bit til I'm ready to.

RIP Daddy, I love and miss you so much! I'm pushing through for my kids and you!💔😭💕