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35 weeks 4 days, baby's heartrate was 131, and my fluid level is at a 20 now. I've gained 2 pounds over the last week,…

35 weeks 4 days, baby's heartrate was 131, and my fluid level is at a 20 now. I've gained 2 pounds over the last week, I'm now 136, yayy.. belly was measuring 34 weeks, but baby is now in 10 percentile. Had to get my strep test done today also. I'm 1 centimeter dilated and he said my cervix is super soft and thin. He will be inducing labor at 38 weeks, but told me that if I starting having contractions 7 minutes apart, for 2 hours straight to go ahead and check myself into labor and delivery and get ready to have her ! He sounded like he didn't think i would make it to 38 weeks, but I hope I do. I'll take 38 weeks over anything sooner ! He also swabbed down there, not sure what he was checking, but said that I should start losing my mucus plug, and bleeding and or spotting. On another note, babygirl did so well today !! She made breathing movements as soon as we started, which is awesome, the weird thing is she was wide awake during the whole ultrasound, eyes wide open, I was able to see her blinking and looking around, so creepy but awesome, yall.. I'm so excited, yet nervous that I'll be holding my little lady in my arms in 2 weeks, 3 days from now !! Here are some pictures from today, with her eyes wide open, u can see her pupils!!

My doctor said he would induce my labor at 38 weeks, if my baby girl still had growth issues and if the percentile dropped to 10 or less. Last thursday, it was 10 percentile, and he said if she didn't come on her own by 38 weeks, he would induce labor at that time. I'm 36 weeks 1 day today, he said my cervix was super thin, and 1cm dilated. Is there a possibility this can change... that my doctor will let her just come on her own? I don't want to be induced, i would much rather her come on her own when she is ready to come ! As much as I am anxious to meet her and have her home with me, those last few weeks of brain development and lung maturation means so much more to me! I'm hoping and praying that things turn around, and I don't have to get induced. I'm surely going to talk to my doctor about it Thursday when I go back.

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday…

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?

38 weeks today ladies !! Tomorrow my little princess will be entering the world and I can't wait to meet her !!

Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my…

Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

20 weeks today !! Yay to halfway !! I feel like scarlette is starting to really grow and poke out more now !! I'm…

20 weeks today !! Yay to halfway !! I feel like scarlette is starting to really grow and poke out more now !! I'm excited about that ! This is a big difference than my 19 week belly pic !!