Sooo my "boyfriend" and I have gone through a lot of shit. To the point, that for the past couple years it seems I didnt have many romantic or sexual feelings for him. Couldn't even give him more than a peck of a kiss.

Well shit hit the fan.. and we finally broke up after 4.5 years. Most of which we constantly fought.

There is still so much love there because for the past couple days we both have been crying a lot. But we know it's for the best.

Well last night we talked a bunch and agreed to more of a break than a break up. I'll still be taking our daughters and moving out for a couple months to help us with the fighting and bring patience back into our relationship.

He started hugging up on me and it was the first time in forever that I actually was turned on. I honestly cant remember the last time we made out because the act made me feel disgusting.. not to mention sex was just horrible because I never wanted it. Well we made out.. and had sex. And it was amazing. And I wanted it. And I hate that it took a break up for me to realize how much I missed the affection. Hopefully time apart will actually mend our differences though. I dont want this to cloud my judgement. But holy shit 😍 I missed enjoying sex. My drive was so low with him that I probably would have been okay with no sex the rest of my life. And finally it's back.. hopefully to stay! Hahah