You know what's hard? The fact I'm a single mom of two that likes women and men (Mostly women). Not because I am ashamed or whatever, but because it's frustrating to find a genuine person to be with. One that I can see myself with, I can share mutual interests with, share the same beliefs and understandings. Ya know? Someone I can be happy with that isn't just putting on a damn show for the world. Now, I've never BEEN WITH a woman. I was young when I "came out" as bisexual. When that happened, almost all the girls were bi, but it was for show because they'd milk that to get attention from guys. Well, now, I know therea LGBTQ+, but I'm scared. I don't know why really. Maybe because I feel like I would probably still never meet someone like I'm looking for. I want someone I can spend my life with and won't look down on me because I have kids (guy or girl). I just don't know. It's frustrating and I can feel my heart racing as I type this because I haven't openly spoken about this to anyone except my counselor. I've only had one person that felt like the right one, but I was in a shitty place and distanced myself until she was gone. We're still friends, but she's in a happy relationship with her first baby. I don't know if anyone can top her because she has been awesome in my life as emotional support & a close friend.. anyway, yeah, just trying to Express my emotions and inner thoughts more now. Rather than keep them in. Anxiety is kicking my ass rn so I'm done here.