Mama's I feel absolutely ridiculous, my sister in law (husband's sister) has not barley talked to me in months... we used to be best friends. But once I found out that I was pregnant with my first baby ever and a girl at that. She stopped talking to me. She went hot then cold in our friendship. I would put in all the effort trying to have her over and i would even watch her son and take care of him even while I was in first part of my pregnancy. She wouldn't come over and spend time with me even then. But she didn't come to my gender reveal and almost didn't come to my baby celebration. She stopped talking to me and stopped posting on my fb page about my pregnancy...

Now today she messaged me and asked me out of the blue how I was feeling. I told her and felt oppressive about why she was checking up on me all the sudden. Well, I guess she noticed how I didn't comment on a specific post that she posted yesterday because I stopped following her page because her post where affecting me personally. Plus I felt hurt. Well she just told me that she is pregnant with her second child. That's all she wanted to tell me. I am nothing like her. So I am extremely excited about this for her. But I just feel so hurt that it took her to get pregnant again for her to talk to me again. Then when I became supportive in our conversation and offered to help her with her son or for her to just visit and even nap here. She gave me an excuse again, just like before. I was doing just fine in my own dang bubble. I was feeling so excited about life and now I am feeling every emotion in the book.

I'm so dang confused. How can someone be so dang toxic that they just have to pop up when stuff is finally going amazing on my end.

I won't let her steal my joy. I've worked really hard to be happy. Today is my day. It's been hard to be happy. I lost my mom last year in September and it's taken me all the way till today to feel so dang happy with my life, husband, true friends and many blessings I have created for myself and Olivia.

I am praying for her. Because I just don't understand why she Is like this. It really hurts my feelings and my heart. I really love her and always want her to be happy. But why does she have to be so toxic to my life.... why don't she just leave me alone... 😭