This sure didn't start the way I would have hoped. I am not feeling up to anything. But i have so much to get done. I am a strong loving and devoted mother. No mom deserves cruel and unusual medicine done unto her, by anyone. As I sit here , I wonder what being here and being happy really is or means. I have long since had much of any person to count on or be there. I lost most of family due to certain relationships and mistakes made by me and them. I have been working on getting past it and starting new...maybe finding new things I would like to do. I don't do well around new faces some times ...this makes it very difficult to find my way. Mommy friends needed. #constantlystressinaboutdangerouscircumstances