Well I started work Monday and I'm loving it. Being back in my routine feels amazing. My babies started daycare again and they both love it. My son's old teacher moved up with him so it was a smooth transition, and my daughter's teachers are amazing . I Thank God for everything, because without him none of this would be possible. My anxiety was so bad, but now back into my routine it's finally way better.
Mother rant
I want to start off this rant with: I love my mom, she is amazing and has helped so much since ds was born and she will be an even bigger help when ds2 is born.
I just want his arms wrapped around me one last time and hear words come out of his mouth that arent true "I love you".. I miss him so bad. My first love! My first relationship! He was many of my first and I know today isnt even the hardest day yet.. I literally hate that I love him so much.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Omg i fergot to mention i might be pregnant and i feel like there is a ball inside my bottom lower front stomach and my back hurts and my boobs feel tender but my period isnt due yet so idk 😐 i didnt use protection and we wasnt careful i think i would love to be a mom again with him as a dad because i love him .
i love hot showers. the water hits my back & it feels so good lol
@scruffy.nerf.herder thank you :)