so. there's this guy.

we're not together. I like him tho. we talk about all kinds of things, when we do talk. I haven't really had that with anyone. he doesn't make me feel bad about myself. he knows I have 2 kids. he knows they're my priority. he knows my current situation. he knows I'm struggling emotionally. he's the sweetest.. he says he wants to build a relationship and asks what I would wanna do about it. give it a shot or pass. I feel like a dick because I want to try, but I have so many things rushing through my head telling me not to do it. I have a behavioral health counselor that I see once a week and we're working on getting me to not be like this.. well, I told her how I'm a negative "what if" thinker and I can't stop it. she told me to try thinking positive "what ifs." like, rather than thinking "what if he's playing with me?" I should think "what if he's serious about me?" but I can't do it. 😭😭😭 I don't want him thinking I don't care about him or anything. I want him to be happy, like I do. I want to be happy too. I deny myself everything good because I'm worried about the worst. help me ladies. I don't know what I'm doing..

*we met years ago when an ex cheated on me, he was his friend back then. I don't remember if we met face to face since it was nearly 10 years ago. so, everything is via Facebook.*