Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

I'm having contractions but can't feel them right now.

I'm convinced I'm going to go into labour at any minute.....I'm having contraction but they're stopping and starting. Yesterday i was having contractions all morning then by the time I got to triage to be monitored they stopped. Now this morning I was sat having breakfast with my son and they started again. But more intense and longer lasting this time. My question is do I phone triage now or do I just wait to see what happens. I feel like I'm wasting their time always ringing etc

tattoo mommies let me see your sweet tattoos this is my right arm its a rose vine going around my arm and on my forearm i have two owls in love connected to it .

on my left side of my belly I have a dragon ;)

Ok so my cramps keep getting worse and I really need to stop contracting right now it's really too soon for my baby too come😞.. I'm so in pain right now I wish there's way to stop contracting at home cus there's no way I can go to the hospital and get shots to stop contractions the hospitals to far and my bf going to work in like 20 minutes...