Been crying for a month now .my depression has been trew the roof .I been arguing with this man cuz he makes plans with…

Been crying for a month now .my depression has been trew the roof .I been arguing with this man cuz he makes plans with out including me but he can include he fjken mother n his mother freind .he dosent help me at all with my daughter I ask for help n he dosent doit ..he ignores my messages but yet replys to his mother freind n his mother ..the other day he say it was job to take care of my daughter cuz he was gonna have a me time .n I told him I never have that n he replys well its ur problem. ladys it's been 4 years I dont cut my hair I dont do my eyebrows n nails or have a night night 😓I feel horrible of my self I hate how I look I gain weight when I had cancer treatment n then when I had my baby n my anxiety has kill me cuz the way I cure I eat ..n my husband says iam fat :( last time he call me Jupiter he is the one the works but I cook I clean I do everything I am beyond scare being alone ...for this month I have cry n cry n I say are we gonna work this out yes or no n he says do whatever u want that's all he says he wont talk n when we do we argue cuz he is on his phone n not paying attention to me. I told him u want divorce del watever u want that's all he says. Iam tired of begging n he accusing me for shit I dont do .I litererly dont have freinds zero freinds 😭I need a freind i dont know wat to do no more.