Missing my angel baby 👼🏻 even tho I decided to TTC again 2 weeks after my miscarriage I’m still so heartbroken & I feel so lost. I don’t understand why.! 1 in 4 not just a statistic ITS ME!!!
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in 2013 I lost my first child one week after I just confirmed my pregnancy. I didn't tell anyone because I was 17 and didn't know how to tell my mom. I was scared. I finally let it out and told her I was bleeding since the day after I went to the clinic for a test. next day, I got home from school and everything in my stomach area was killing me. went to the hospital because it got so intense. paperwork said threatened miscarriage. next day... a tiny bloody blob came out... doc wouldn't tell me anything. just gave me a speech about life and how I should focus on a career and my future instead of family, friends, having kids, etc.. over that weekend, I cried more than I slept. for physical pain as well as for the loss I knew in my mind I had lost... but didn't KNOW for sure... I kept telling myself it didn't happen because my doc said "it could be a blood clot. could be the baby. this & that..." never said "You miscarried. there is no longer a baby in your body." I read it on the paperwork that weekend as I cried my eyes out. I couldn't bring myself to believe it for months.. when my due date came around, I kept hoping my baby would arrive any day.. a couple months after, still nothing and it hit me so hard because I KNEW I miscarried, but I just couldn't believe it in my heart... I'm also 1 in 4. I miss my child every day and wonder what he would be like. would he be proud of me? would he be happy I'm his mom? would he look like me? .... this October, he will be 5 and it still hurts that I can't celebrate with him. to see a smile on his face. to watch him playing before my eyes.. I've had two kids since I lost him and I still feel so empty without him. I don't know what's wrong with me.. I love my kids. I really do. but why do I feel so guilty for feeling this way? 💔💔💔
SORRY TO RANT... I'm also so so so sorry for your loss. 💛
@mommytobeautifulbabies, I’m sorry for your loss as well
Im so sorry love :( i know ur pain i lost 2 angel babies un 2013 :(
💔 may your angel rest in paradise. Im so sorry you had to go through this 😣
@chaaaachix, no worries momma that’s what we’re here for.