I'm just now taking the time to think and I just realized I'm out of my mind. I'm not happy and not because I don't want to be because I do I'm just not. I feel like crap, I'm stuck staring into space and I can't help it. Don't get me wrong I'm happy I have my son I really am and I love him to death but I still can't seem to get out of space staring. It makes me feel like complete crap when I look at him and can't even smile because there's so much on my mind and going on. I just feel like I'm a crap mother and can't do any right by him. I feel like I'm failing him as a mother. Everything is getting to me and it sucks because I want to be able to give my son my undivided attention but I can't because I'm so worried about everything else going on. I need a break from everything. My brain needs to rest so I can get myself together and be a better mother. I really don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lost and confused and frustrated. I really don't want to fail him, I want to be the best mother I can be to him and I'm failing.
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@kelley.blue, Thank you so much 💙!! I really do appreciate the help you've given me and the advice.
@waylensmommy, That's fine. No problem at all. We all went to sleep and now I'm bk up for some odd reason lol... And there is nothing wrong with talking to a professional bc it could be that and it's best to get that taken care of. I know that I would. But just know these things can be fixed and I'm here for mommy support hun. I was a Baby Bump member for years and it definitely got me through some tough times as a new mother... These communities can be do helpful when utilized the right way.
@kelley.blue, I really appreciate you taking the time to go back and forth with me so late at night. I've had depression in the past and I was scared that I may have post partum depression and it scared me because I didn't want to feel unhappy toward my son. I know I'm not the only one that feels like this but when in the moment I feel like I am the only one
@waylensmommy , you're a new mom and sometimes these babies will have you like a mom-bie (zombie). My 18 month old cried every night from 10p-6a for 8 or 9 weeks of my 10 week maternity leave... I was like wth is wrong with this child! It was very stressful and I've been in the childcare field for nearly 15 yrs now and in the healthcare field for over 6 years... Nothing prepares you for your own child!! So yes, after hearing so much crying for so long you may unintentionally tune him out. Once he's been fed, changed, pooped, no fever and there's no painful cry--- he may have to cry it out. You'll know the cries at some point. I'm sorry you're going through this. Get gripe water too, he may have colic..
@kelley.blue, There's days that he'll cry and I'll be staring into space and it's like I don't understand how I zoned out so bad that I toned out my own baby. I want to make sure I do everything I can do he can have a better life than me. He does make me super happy on the days I feel the worst but then there's some days that I feel like crap and even his smile can't even help and that's what makes me feel like a crap mom. I don't want him to see my broken or crying ever. I want to be strong for him.
@waylensmommy , why do you feel like you're failing him? That baby believes in you even when you don't believe in yourself. I sometimes get upset with myself bc I've spent my 3 yr old's baby years working like crazy and now I look up and realize we won't have the time to spend together that we once did. I also have an 18 month old but bc of my new work schedule she'll be with a sitter full-time now but i may be able to stop full-time again b4 she's in school full-time. Time flies and these babies grow up before we know it. You just need to pray, put your faith in the Lord and do all that's in your power to take care of your baby. There's nothing more that you can do but the Lord can do way more. You are going to be fine mommy. That baby is going to give you the strength that you never knew you had... Mines sure did! Looking at them and knowing that they have the choice to do even greater things than you do makes you want to strive for more just for them... That's a lot to smile about girlfriend😘😘😘
Trigger. Lost baby
Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Creeped out!
A new guy at work just tickled the back of my neck! I cringed and told him "Don't ever touch me, that weirds me out!" On Monday he pulled my braid as I was grabbing parts for him, I also told him don't ever do that. Ugh. I don't feel comfortable working with him EVER! A coworker told me that when she walked past he said "what's cooking good looking". I feel he doesn't deserve to work here. I can't feel like I'm going to be harassed at work. Like who does that?? I'm so creeped ou...
I'm so scared I'm going to go through PPD, I been so sad lately and it's mainly about my 18 month old. I feel like I'm failing him as a mom because he rather go to my mom than me and he don't like to come to me as much since the baby been born. Now he has his moments where he get mad and hit at the baby , of course I pop him and tell him that's a no no and not to fight his brother. I feel like I'm failing as a mom to him sometimes.
My husband is honestly so unhappy in the military and it breaks my heart in pieces because I can't do anything about it😔 I love him so much and I'm so proud of him. I just want him to feel fulfilled
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