I haven’t been on here in awhile due to everything going on ; soooo everyone knows Mark & I broke up because he was abusing me & I just couldn’t take it anymore , I couldn’t let Abel grow up seeing that ... but the past couple of weeks have been so hard on me . Mark has moved in with a new woman which isn’t my problem (even if it upsets me a little) my problem is that he has packed all of Abel things up in boxes & told his sister to give them to me .. it makes me feel like he wants nothing to do with Abel now which is so sad . Even tho mark was horrible to me Abel still loves him & mark isn’t even trying to see him . The judge told him he needed to go to the court house in the county we lived will he didn’t do it so I went & filled paperwork out .... mark ever responded , so now I have to run it in the newspaper ... if mark doesn’t come it could be up to a year for him to ever see Abel which hurts my heart a little .... I never wanted Mark to give up on his son , I never WANTED to lose my family I just couldn’t take the bullshit anymore .... & I still feel like I’m blamed for Mark losing custody of Abel .. which I tell everyone that was never my plan I was letting him see Abel whenever he wanted HE IS THE ONE THAT COULDN’T CONTROL HISSELF & wanted to beat my ass & bust my windshield out with us in it . I never put my hands on him he was always the one knocking me out & leaving bruises on me ..... I know I should hate him but I don’t, I never want to be with him again but I do want him to do good & I want him to have a Active relationship with our son .. our son deserves it . I just could never imagine going that long without seeing my son . & I don’t want to tell Abel when he gets older why his dad decided not to be in his life & wanted to take care of someone else’s kid before him