How can I not worry about my baby breathing while I’m sleeping? I’m so scared to go to sleep. I keep checking on her and she’s right beside me in her crib 😭😭

I still do that my boys are 3&2 and i still check on them people think im crazy but i cant help it!!
Its normal. My 7 month old sleeps with me so I can keep a hand on him at all times
My son is 2 and I still check on him at least 5 times a night unless he is with us in bed I just keep my hand on him. It’s normal
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
TWW!!
2dpo and on the tww journey. Anyone on the same dpo or close? Haven't decided if I will test at 12dpo or just wait and see if she shows up!!

I will be 41 :/
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.