Sorry I have not been on lately, but I would rather not ruin other peoples moods. Since my son passed and I had to give birth to him after he passed away at almost full term, I feel so angry and annoyed by other mothers who are giving birth or have given birth and get to love there babies and watch them grow. I feel so guilty for feeling this way but I can't control it.
I used to try and hold in crying around my son until last month he saw someone else crying and said they are a cry baby because mommy never cries.. I realized he needs to know it’s okay to have feelings so now I just let it flow ❤️❤️❤️❤️
It is hard. I was resentful for years and couldn't be around expecting moms or their kids. I wish I could say the pain goes away, because it doesn't. But it does get easier over time, I promise you.
There is nothing wrong with feeling that way, my mom lost my brother during birth and it took her nearly 10 years to be somewhat human again. I could never understand your pain but I do know that is one of the hardest things to go through, if it gets too dark please don’t be afraid to seek help I know a lot of women who have had to after something similar. Keeping you in my thoughts!
@tattedmommy2018, it’s ok to show emotions around them. Having feelings is completely normal and healthy. You need to let yourself feel the way you feel in order to heal.
It just sucks he would have been 2 weeks old today. I hold in my feelings around my other children because I don't want them to see how weak I can be as a person. I want them to think I am a strong person. I have never felt so alone my whole life with so many people around me trying to help.
I’m so sorry! ❤️ Please don’t feel guilty for the way you’re grieving. It’s completely understandable and normal.
I’m sorry for your loss. Anger is part of healing, allow yourself to feel whatever you need to.
It will get easier over time.. I miscarried before my son was born and I was torn up to pieces.. but when I look at my son I feel better.. ❤️ you will never stop loving that child because they are still your baby.. they are just watching out for you in heaven ❤️❤️