How Do You Cope with the Heartbreak of Losing a Baby?

I never thought I will know how it feels to lose a baby then to hear the doctor tell me he have bad news 😩 I fell in love with this baby so hard y'all! I knew when I started spotting and over time started light bleeding not long after even tho it wasn't heavy I got a deep sad feeling in my gut something wasn't right. After I passed that first bit of tissue I somewhat knew more. Last night I passed another bit but this look wayy different. I seen not a white but like a off white piece in the tissue which I believe the have been the sac. The off white part I saw was round almost shape like a circle I went to my boyfriend and told him I feel like this might be the baby. Looked online and seen one similar so I said thts not my baby it's still growing inside my belly. I didn't want to say anything negative yet alone believe that was. I first started spotting on the 6th soon after light bleeding came with cramps. It was a back and fourth type thing from light bleeding to spotting back to light bleeding. Well today The doctor broke the bad news while at the hospital and told my my beta level dropped all the way to 70. I'm so heartbroken. I'm so depressed 😭 I have baby boxes coming in the mail tomorrow, already received babu boxes ordered books on eating right and 9 month pregnancy books,Got a fetal Doppler just to hear news I never thought I'll hear. Which add on to the stress getting baby things with personalize Congratulations letter 😞 Right now I'm taking a break from this app as well as everything else because it's going to be sooo hard seeing all the successful pregnancies especially the ones thats around the weeks I would've been! I wouldn't wish this on my worse enemy. I've lost my baby 😞 Something i don't think I'll ever let go/get over . 😢 Tear will never stop ......................