The only reason I have not killed myself is bc of my daughter and not wanting to go to hell I pray that I won't wake up the next morning
@katelynn, hun break the cycle. You have a daughter and one day she's going to meet a boy and you don't want her to go through what you are. Show her what a healthy relationship is. Your love for her should give you enough strength to rise above all your problems and to leave your husband.
@katelynn, I’m sorry if this is intrusive, and I don’t mean to throw it in your face, but I’ve been reading your updates and there are many where you’re not happy with him. Let me ask you this: if you had the help, support system, money to leave would you?
@katelynn love doesn’t always mean you need to stay tho. You can love someone to the ends of the earth and they can be toxic to be with. Love shouldn’t make you feel bad because you didn’t wanna have sex. Love should be understanding and patient. If good doesn’t outweigh the bad, it’s not really worth it.
@mojobebe. It does I just hate how he made me feel today bc I told him no to sex this morning so he is mad I got to the point I told him to jack off but he says that's not good enough
@queenmeeks. Bc I love him I can't work I don't wanna live with my family bc they were more toxi to me while growing up
@katelynn, I understand you love him. But ask yourself: does the good outweigh the bad or vice versa?
@katelynn I am so sorry. I’ve been reading other comments and you said he treats you like a maid and a slave and wants sex whenever he wants it with no thought about how you feel? This is toxic. What’s making you stay?
@queenmeeks. Yes they have they have yo be careful what pills they give me bc of my problems I tried many different therapist for 15 years started going at 8 years old they all made it worse
@katelynn, He should understand you are depressed and sex is the last thing on your mind. You mentioned him treating you like a maid and slave because you are a SAHM. He also says mean things to you. All this doesn’t not help your mental state. Why do you stay?
@katelynn have you exhausted all medicine options? Have you thought about intensive therapy, either inpatient or outpatient?
Oh mama. This is not a good way to feel. Reach out to your doctor and tell them how you are feeling. Do you have a support system surrounding you? We are here to listen if you want to talk.
@n_favors. He dosnt he throws a fit when he don't get it and some days we r fine other days he makes it worse
@katelynn Is he making ur depression worse? Dnt listen to his mom. If u dnt want to have sex then he should understand
@mojobebe. Bc he says mean things to me with out thinking he thinks I should be a maid and slave bc I don't work he thinks I should always give him sex everytime he wants
@bcsweetie they want me to live with them and I don't wanna go back living at my moms
@n_favors no meds have work I have tried many therapist and all made me worse
@katelynn None of the meds work 4 U? Do u have a regular therapist r life coach
@mojobebe. I tried venting to his mom but she said I should always bend ovee back wards and give my husband sex every morning and night I have no sex deive bit give in 1 to 2 times a week but its still not good enough
@mojobebe I use to vent to family but they wanna take me away from my husband
@n_favors I been teying to get help over 10 years no one has helped me they wanna do shock therapy now
@bcsweetie I have talk to my dr they say they can't do anything else for me but shock therapy
Do you have anyone you can talk to about how you are feeling? Please reach out to someone! Would you feel comfortable venting with us? Or maybe messaging us?
I agree talk to your Dr and do it as fast as you can. U r special and you're someone's mom so u got a lot to live 4. Depression is an illness and can over power u. Please get some help. U can message me anytime
@mojobebe. No I love him I just wish u understood and bit only though of him self