For those of you that pray, I need you to pray for me please. Here’s specifically what I am praying for right now:
-For God to help remind me that he doesn’t hand out babies as a reward or withhold them as a punishment.
-That one person’s ability to conceive is independent of my ability to conceive (i.e. that “she didn’t get the baby I should get to have/want so badly”)
-In a “bad” situation that a baby is being brought into to remember to pray for the best outcome for that precious child
-To remind me that it’s not my place to judge someone or a situation as undeserving of a child, but to also forgive myself and ask God for forgiveness when those thoughts creep in
-For God to help me treat this woman with grace & support in the coming months in place of jealousy, fear and avoidance

I was blindsided by a “surprise” pregnancy announcement on Instagram of someone close to me who is in a very less than ideal situation last night and I’m struggling big time right now.