Today's the day that we spent nearly 5 months of my pregnancy excitedly waiting for. Today's the day they told us he'd be born. It's hard to believe it's been 4 months since he was with us, four months of moving forward but never moving on. I honestly don't know that I believe everything happens for a reason anymore, but I do wholeheartedly believe that God can use all things for good, and my Enoch was the definition of good in this world. He only knew love, he never knew physical or emotional pain, and even though it's hard for me because I wanted him here with me more than anything, when he opened his eyes the first thing he saw was the face of Jesus. I've learned so many things on this journey. Patience, humility, strength, courage, resilience, compassion - but most importantly, I've learned that it's okay to be broken. I'll always be broken, but just like a mosaic created by shattered glass, I can piece my heart back together into something more beautiful than it was before. More loving, more kind, more humble.
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Oh, ladies, I am so sorry for all of your losses. It's just not fair. We shouldn't be here, going through this. Praying for all of you!
Very encouraging words. I know exactly what you are going through and sorry you had to experience that. I had two babies sleeping. A girl at 20 weeks and a boy at 26 weeks. Now I am currently 30 weeks pregnant with my Rainbow Miracle. He is why I am trying to stand up tall. He is why I am trying to let all emotions to the side. It is very hard to stay stable with a pregnancy after a tragic loss, mentally. I keep thinking what if I lose a third child?? I would be heartbroken. Then I get these beautiful kicks and movements like he's telling me "Mama I'm okay." I cry and smile at the same time. Its the best feeling any one can ever felt. Good Luck and Stay Strong. My little niece always tells me think positive, which is easier said than done. Just have hope and soon you will hold your baby in your arms. Hugs and prayers for a healthy baby. ???
I too know how you feel. I had twin daughters sleeping at 27.5 weeks. It is the toughest road but you certainly learn so Much through such a hard time.
I'm so sorry this happened to you and I will never understand why really really really bad things happen to really really really good people.
Your memorial to your son is beautiful and he is very proud of you and your family. Always remember that!
Big hugs
What a beautiful post. You are such an amazing strong woman. Precious Enoch will be in my heart forever. He changed my life for the better.
You were chosen to be his mother and you will be forever blessed Bc of it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this journey with us. I held on to every last word as I read your post with love and prayer in my heart for you and your family. May God continue to mend your heart into the most beautiful mosaic masterpiece ever seen.
We love you baby Enoch and you too excited
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Thank you! That's why we picked his name. We didn't have one chosen before he passed and I was so devastated we wouldn't have a name for him. I started reading the Bible while in L&D and I came across the story of Enoch. How God loved him so much, he didn't die. God just took him out of this world and right to heaven. It was the perfect name for my boy. ?
This is just lovely. Enoch is such a beautiful name. In the Bible it says that God loved Enoch so much...he even walked with him☺.....and its also my brothers name ;)
I would like to say I'm truly proud of your strength. We can definitley see the beautiful person you are. Wishing you more peace and love.
I do keep a journal and I'll eventually write a book. I have a heart for helping other mama's through such a hard time.
Thank you, ladies.
@bowties - technically I did just announce my pregnancy a few days ago - with my rainbow. God is good. ?
Oh my goodness, seems like just yesterday you announced you were pregnant.. You are so strong mama. This is written so beautifully. Hope I'm not intruding asking this but have you thought of keeping a journal? Writing down all the things you post, plus I'm sure there's much more you haven't? It's sad but you seem to give so much hope and strength all at the same time. It might be nice to have in a nice keepsake.
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