to test or not to test...
so i wanted to wait to test with dh if/when af is late. i remember how special it was the first time i saw those two lines, and i wanted to share that with him. af is due monday or tues. i've been feeling exactly like i did after bfp with ds. crampy, bloated, twinges, heavy... i've also had spotting (brown only sometimes when i wipe) for a couple days. and supposedly you often feel it early with #2. i think he'll think i'm crazy to test before. i keep going in circles. test without him, then tell him if yes. test without him, pretend i didn't then tell him, and retest. tell him and test on sunday monday, or lie that i am a day late and test sunday monday?? help me choose, i'm drving myself bananas!!
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Trigger. Lost baby
Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

My husband and I aren’t exactly strangers when it comes to relationship challenges 💞. We have been together for 14 years and married for eight, so we’ve definitely gone through some growing pains as we navigated a long-distance relationship in college and our first year living together as a married 👫 couple.
But nothing has challenged our relationship quite like our first year as 👪 parents .
Before you have your first child, you have these grand ideas of what it will be like. There’s more slee...
Damn Af i guess its a start for a better month...CD1 for me
who wants to make this group for the lucky ladies tryin to get that BFP...lets make this group fun Af due December 9
@itsamemario, you deleted your post before I could hit send but this is my comment: I don’t know if this answers your question but this is my answer.
My son is 7 and he knows race and color. Why? Because he himself comes from a family that is multi racial and because he has already experienced racism. I also believe as his mother it’s my job to teach him color and the cold hard truth about society. He knows what’s going on in this world. I’d be hurting him if I allowed him to blindly walk out...
fyi I told him, but should have just done it on my own. guys just don't have the same anxiety over this as us. he was happy and excited, but not like I am. its so true how a mom becomes a mom when pg, and a dad becomes a dad when the baby comes! (bfn, but its early still :-)