crazy ramblings...

I find that when I write things down sometimes my mind will finally SHUT UP! so here goes...29 TTC #2, ds 20 months. According to pp I'm only 6 dpo- although I thought I felt o pains before that. Since Friday I've been really bloated. I have had real slight cramps, and twinges. I'm tired, a bit out of breath, and just "out of sorts." Also, ds still nurses before nap and bedtime- it hurts when he latches, and he seems to be done a lot sooner and not happy about that. I had symptoms early with ds, and supposedly they come real early and strong often with #2. I planned on waiting until/if af was late which really wouldn't be until next wed, argh but i'm going crazy!! I don't know if my mind is playing tricks, or not. I wanted to test with dh, but he would think i'm nuts to test before, but I don't know how long I can hold out!!!!!!