Update.. New car that fits car seat fantastically, new tattoo to help me remember. I really don't see my husband and I making it through. Too much hatred and resentment through both of us. He's mentally checked out and I don't have enough strength to pull all of us while taking care of our son 22/7. It's just sad to think if I had income I know I wouldn't be here because who wants to live unhappy and disconnected from your spouse ? But I'll continue to pray because I just want my husband to get some help.