Am I the only one ?
Sometimes I get so unattached from this pregnancy. It never lasts long but sometimes I just wonder if this is how it's supposed to be, am I supposed to be a mom right now ? Am I supposed to have my baby now ? Will I be a good mom ? How will I provide for him ? How will I teach him ? Will he love me ? Will I love him ? I mean I do but idk. Those are just some thoughts and feelings I go through every blue moon. I mean at the end of the day I love this baby soooooooo much it's crazy. But I have my doubts. Am I the only one ???
I thought that once I had my lo I would feel some instant connection to her, but instead she's more connected to her daddy and grandmother. I call her grandmother (my mom) the "off switch", because my lo stops crying once she picks her up.... makes me feel like she thinks my mom is her mother.....
I feel horrible about it, and I know that I love my little girl, but I have yet to feel that maternal kick-in yet...... :-/