Hello,
I completely understand how you're feeling. After my first loss last September I was terrified to be pregnant again. We ended up finding out we were pregnant in July, only for me to miscarry again last week. My entire second pregnancy I spent terrified of going through it again and I'm sure the next time I'm pregnant I'll feel the same way. It's tough because you know there's nothing you can do, but once you've gone through it and have experienced that devastation, it's really hard to forget it.
I'm praying for you and a healthy pregnancy. Sometimes venting is just what we need. ❤️