Thank you so much for the kind words ladies, it really means a lot. It's so hard not to stress but I know I have to stay strong for my babies...It just get overwhelming at times!

I think you are a really strong woman. God had plans for you because he knows you got this. Take each day a step at a time and all will be fine. Sending godly blessings your way to you and your boys.

Count your blessings momma. Tomorrow will be a better day ans those boys are strong. My mom was a twin, but her twin didn't make it and was malnourished at delivery. They didnt have the technology 50 years ago that was so accessible to check and if they had been born today like your babies, things would have been different and promising like your babies. You have a miracle in Twin b and someday you'll look back on this time and wonder how you ever made it through, but you will and so will they. Chin up, big hugs, and keep strong for all of your family. It is a heavy burden but that is why you've been chosen to bear it. Hugs

Admitting your weakness in a moment of need shows strength in and of itself. Put it all in God's hands. He will carry you through. Just when you think you're not strong enough, He will show that He is, and He is within you! God bless you and your family.

Praying for strength and comfort to get you through these days. Your babies are obviously so well loved and they'll be home in your arms before you know it. I understand this is a tough season, we are all here for support!

The fact that you're still getting up everyday and caring for everyone and putting their needs first is amazing. From the sounds of it there's nothing more you can do. But please don't forget about you!! Go soak in a bubble bath or take yourself to the cafe for some coffee and alone time. ? you can do it!

Being a Nicu mom is one of the hardest things to go through; especially on those roller coaster days. But just remember this too shall pass and those precious boys will be strong and home soon! You got this mama and so do your boys!

I think you did all you could for your boys. They are getting the best care and will be strong and ready to go home soon. Maybe take a bath or get your nails done when hubby is home to give you a break. Hang in there momma.

I think you have done amazing and been so strong, and its OK to have down days its normal expecially for a nicu mumma dont feel bad, I believe its better for you to vent and talk about how your feeling its healthy nobody expects you to be super mum all the time huni, do you have anyone that can watch your other kids for a few hrs one night so you and hubby can have a date night even just go to dinner for an hr or put the kids to bed early and have a movie night and order some take out, or a nice bath what ever it take for some relaxing time, I can't imagine what you are going through but you are amazing keep your head high. Xx

Thanks moeschal, like I said I usually keep things to myself and just deal with it but I just can't control my emotions. Im questioning my strength, I wish I can just snap my fingers and take away all the struggles my babies face.

It's hard not to blame yourself and think "what if." God do I know that feeling all to well this pregnancy. But, having your babies early was probably a lifesaver to baby B. Hopefully soon you can have a night to yourself. Or maybe a soak in the tub. I hope things start to look up.

Hey ladies...I'm having a rough day and just need to vent a little. As most know, I had my twins on February 15th at 28 weeks and we are on day 50 in the nicu. The boys are doing ok and they are progressing but every now and then we will have a little set back, especially with twin b. He was the twin that had blood flow issues and he was on the small side and I blame myself a lot. I get super sad when I see everyone still baking their precious little ones and I often think, why weren't we so lucky!?! My husband works 12-16 hours shifts, so I'm mostly by myself taking care of home, the kids, and going to the hospital every day, with absolutely no time to myself but I'm ok with it because I am mainly concerned about my children. Im just having one of those days where I don't feel like a strong nicu mom. I feel weak and helpless at this moment and I don't know how to pick myself back up!