9 dpo and bfn why do I do this to myself. 5 cycles and I'm discouraged. Why can't it just happen I'm…

9 dpo and bfn why do I do this to myself. 5 cycles and I'm discouraged. Why can't it just happen I'm doing everything right. I have 6 pregnant coworkers that wasn't even trying. Friends and fb friends popping up with announcements. I'm stuck taking opks and praying. No luck. I see mothers that get abortions every year but I can't make this happen. my 5 yr old will never have a sibling. I'm sorry everyone ***rant****