Thanks ladies. She goes home tomorrow and will be with her uncle and sister. I just dont know what this weekend will hold for her. :(

I finally got ds1 asleep and he was the last one awake. Things are calm but I just cant shake the feeling that something big and bad is going to happen. The feeling is so strong that I'm terrified to put ds in his bed. I hope it's just my ppd setting my anxiety off.

I cant wait for her to go home so that she can feel stable, loved, and not scared. I just wish that she would feel that way here, but, I know that one day she'll look back and know that she was loved and that we had her back even though she didnt think we did at the time.

I know she may be hurting but you are the adult. And when gentle talking doesnt work then maybe its time for tough love!

I would suggest an outdoor activity to channel her anger out and also probably tire her out some!

But its kind of late now, i would consider it tomorrow tho. Just a thought!

Hope you feel better soon :)

Ilovechickens, thanks for the support any way.

Mega- my phone autocorrects because every stinkin time and I keep forgetting to fix it. Lol

She finally fell asleep. Her acting out went into full swing as we were trying to get my kids back to bed after she woke them up on purpose but it wasnt done out of agression. She woke them up before she found out where her mom was. She woke them up while I was unlocking the front door, she tried talking to them while she was waiting for me. She picked her adult to attach to and calmed down after talking to her uncle.

Normally I could handle these things with ease and be able to reassure her that everything will be fine but once she decided I was to blame anything I said went out the window. Dh has told me he will get her up and around for school and is willing to take her to school so that I can focus on our kids and she can focus on getting ready while feeling secure. I just hate that this is happening to her, and I hate that I cant help her even more.

I hate to think of the set back this could cause for the kids. I feel nothing but hurt for her kids, they are the ones who are going to be the most hurt by this. Her youngest 2 have a lot of issues due to sucky things that have happened and now this happens.

This is just sucky all the way around.

I know she's hurt and normally I would love on her but she has some other issues that make her extremly agressive and she will get violent just becuase her mom isnt here. It's not just my sons saftey I'm worried about, it's hers too.

Seriously, she got angry and in my sons face becuase he followed me into the room she was in while I was getting her things around for tomorrow. He said 'hi -insert name-.' And she started telling him to shut up becuase he's just a stupid baby.

I normally would be more clear headed but for some reason I just cant be this time. I think it's becuase my children are involved.

I feel guilty for not being able to be my normally supportive and helpful self but I truly just want to lock myself and my kids in my room and pretend like this isnt happening. I would include her in the hiding in my room, a part of me wants to, but I dont feel my kids (that includes her) are safe around each other and that upsets me the most.