You're a trooper! Night shifts are exhausting for me not pregnant and ten years younger! God bless you for working them! Anniversary dates are terribly emotional and anxiety provoking so don't feel bad for a second. Praying your scan tomorrow is amazing and beautiful!

Glad you're feeling better. We're all entitled to our crazy moments Hun, and we're here when u need to vent and hve a little stress about things! ?

And I no!! It's madness really, and only 9 weeks to go. I'm so bloody excited now it's untrue! ?

I usually hve to work all over Xmas for my job, but obviously this year I'm on maternity leave. I'm obviously running the risk that I'll be giving birth on Xmas day tho! ??

Hve u had your scan yet? If so, how hve u got on? Make sure u let us hve a little peek! ??

You kno what you need, a nice vaca to tropics :) I'll come with ya!!!!! No seriously it's ok to feel the way your feeling. It's alot and plus your emotional and things get us more then usual. I cried my eyes out when I had the dream about my dad, it was a good dream but still miss him dearly and wished that was in real life. I still get teary eyed. I'm sure this baby is totally fine but I'm the same way I kinda block some emotions from this little one cuz I'm scared something will happen and it's my way of defense and I feel horrible about it but once you lose a child it's different and you view things differently. We're all here for you love!!!! ((((((Big hugs)))))

Thanks girls your words mean so much. Feeling alot better now,just needed to vent. I actually am quite excited about the scan tomorrow, I just let my fears get the better of me sometimes. I think it's something we all have to deal with in our rainbow pregnancies at some stage ?

@lottie as long as I don't do too many nights at once it's not too bad. Like 3 is a struggle and 4 would have me laid up for a few days after ? I do get almost a week off in between though so it's not too bad. The Christmas thing sucks but we'll see how it plays out. I actually can't believe you're 31 weeks already ? it's like you skipped about 10 weeks ? you really don't have long to go now xxx

Ahh that's so sucky about working nights over Xmas? Is there not some policy that means u don't hve to work nights in pregnancy? I had to give them up at like 10 weeks cuz they were killing me, so I can't even imagine how u must be feeling doing them now!! ??

Also, you're allowed to be a mess on days like this. It's normal, and if u need to cry then u let it out. I was an absolute wreck on what would hve been my due date, and I'm already dreading the anniversary of my loss, which is in November. ?

It's also normal to be worried about this pregnancy. Every lady on this site will agree!! Before my 20w scan I was a daily mess, but I promise u it gets easier. I still worry now at nearly 31 weeks, but now I hve the pleasure of been able to jst lie down for 15 minutes or so and I'll feel something. You'll soon hve that, and it'll make the world of difference. I used to feel bad about not been able to enjoy this pregnancy, but I'm making up for it now, and I no I will even more when little one arrives! As will u! ?

Big hugs Hun, xx

God will squeeze but he won't choke...

try to think more positive so far thank the lord everything has been okay with you and the baby try to enjoy these moments your angel is watching over you

Don't feel scared God has you I know exactly how you feel! But everything is in gods hands! Nothing will go wrong! Your son is watching over you and your rainbow!