Things def have to look up for sure. Friends are always needed. Thanks mammas ❤️

I started feeling this baby move this morning An honestly I felt like crap up until then. It was almost comforting . Nobody wants to be a single parent but as mothers we gotta make things happen ! That sucks about your job ! I applied at the post office An couldn't get in because I would have to work a full year to get benefits like medical time off An stuff like that. I sent you a friend request ! I could use a friend as well . I know that we got this regardless ! Things will look up for the both of us !!

I get it. You feel so guilty, but let yourself say it. I hate pregnancy. I was so heartbroken to finally admit it. I'm so grateful to have the ability to carry. I'm so grateful for my son and for this little babe. I've suffered loss, but I still hate being pregnant. I wanted to love it so bad. I just don't and being able to get it off my chest helped. Having close friends who won't judge super helped. I mean who loves feeling like crap? Some mamas just don't experience the negatives like we do and that's ok, but it's also ok for us to hate it. No one likes throwing up so I feel you 100%. Vent away.. listening and sending love. ❤️

For sure I’m so excited but so nervous I just want to do a good job. I can’t wait to meet him/her we find out the gender next week. I’ve just been down about figuring out how I’m going to figure everything out lol bc I’m moving to Mississippi when the baby is barely 2 months bc that’s where my boyfriend is stationed so there’s just a ton of transitioning asap. I’m definitely super pumped about all that but I have my down moments that consist of those things.

Thank you linacoral ? Not everything lasts forever is what I’ve gotta keep reminding myself. Thanks Mamma ❤️

You have Alot to deal with? definitely should let your Dr know. Everything will be alright. I think the sickness is big possibility it's a girl. I was terribly sick pregnant with a girl. I really hope things get better for you and you find a peace of mind. Be strong as nothing ever lasts forever. I'll keep you in my prayers. Take care. And rant on no one's perfect. No judgement here. ☮️

Oh rant away aleah ?? It gets hard when it comes to complaining about your own situations I find. I’d rather see the good side to things and see this as a blessing and every child is a gift not a curse. Yea they change the course of our lives but isn’t it for the better? I don’t know. Lol. I became a Mum at 20yrs old so I get where your coming from. I wasn’t ready to become a Mum then. Like I enjoyed my time. My partner at the time we were together for 5yrs but I still wasn’t ready at all. I too freaked out. I actually thought fat ppl couldn’t fall pregnant lol. Saw it on a tv show once. Anyhoo he was born 9months later after the worst morning sickness ever but best labour in the universe. He is now 12yrs nearly 13yrs and I couldn’t imagine my life without him in it. Think this baby will do the same. As much as things are hard right now. Once I see this baby all those fears and disappointments in myself will disappear. ?? feel like I not only let myself down but my boys. I’ve been a stay at home Mum that whole time cos I didn’t wanna send my kids to full time daycare. I have a 5yr old as well. And he just started school this year. Ah man. This is us Mammas. Our struggles don’t define us tho! Just gonna push above it and stand tall and proud of my body and my babies. ❤️

@eshnew I’m due oct 11. So we are close. This baby was def a surprise. And I had just gotten a high paying job that I tried so hard to apply for and had 3 lots of interviews to get that job. I got through all those processes only to have found out I was pregnant with bubs and got too sick to continue working for them so I had to quit. I put my life back on hold and seems like Sperm donor is living the dream. My 2 older boys are in school hence why I applied for this job. I was looking forward to working again. Anyhow life changes. I told him how sick I was lately and the response I got was “oh ok sorry your sick”. Not is there anything I can do to help. No support. So no more from him. Hopefully once I even feel bubs move things will change. I don’t know. But right now I’m sick, feeling so alone and feeling like I’ve disappointed myself to be back in this position of single parenting when it’s not what I wanted.

Here if you wanna talk Mamma. I know I could use friends right about now going through the same thing that’s for sure xx

I'm in the same boat as you . Unfortunately things happen. I'm sure once they come out we will be in love all over again. This is my third An deff wasn't planned An the dad doesn't want anything to do w it as well . I contemplated going to a preterm clinic but couldn't stomach the idea. I feel like there's a purpose for this children. We may not have strong bonds at the moment but it's gonna get better . I'm due 10/12 and it's hard for me to hide the bump now and so far when ppl have asked me I've gone so far as to tell them no . Smh don't be so don't on yalsef .

Thank you so much Kitkat ? I appreciate that big time. I was reluctant in putting this post up because of the amount of mammas on here who have had trouble conceiving or its their rainbow baby or IVF baby. I felt rude for being a downer. But my feelings are real too. I am so sick. I’ve never thrown up so much in my whole pregnancy than what I have in the last 3-4days with this sickness. It’s killing me. I’m sick of throwing up! I’m also moving and packing and a lot of drama in that area with realestates and trying to get approved for house now I’m single and not working is proving really hard. I’m not normally a downer at all but all this at once is getting to me. And pregnancy hormones don’t make it any easier. I just got off the phone to my Mum for the 3rd time today crying and not coping. Just need things to fall into place already. Need to stop being sick and need to actually start feeling happy and blessed with this little baby inside me growing and start enjoying this pregnancy. I’m just not there yet. Ahhh man life is just a bit challenging atm ?

Oh hun, don’t ever feel guilty for your feelings. And don’t even think about apologizing for getting your thoughts our of your mind. It’s not healthy to keep thrm all bottled up. Your going through an emormous amount of insanity at the moment. And like you’ve said, you have no one to really rant/vent too. Well like pp said we’ll be here for you. Anytime darling! I trully mean that. Even if it’s just a private message. ?

I didn’t bond with my first born. It hit me like a ton of bricks as the physician was stitching me up I actualy said out loud “holé s*** I’m a mom!!!” Everyone starting laughing but I was dead serious, I had a bit of a panicked moment like oh s*** this is all real. And honestly with all your going through I’m pretty sure most of us wouldn’t be able to bond. Your busy with your kids, sick as a dog all the time, chest infection, single mom...etc. But remember your baby won’t be affected by your ability to bond or not during pregnancy. And when you see his/her sweet little face in a few short months, I’m positive your bond will be secured and unbreakable!!

Thank you jessig. I literally cried reading your message ? I’ve never had these feelings before with my other 2 pregnancies. I’m crying all the time. I’m stressed all the time. I’m feeling so far away from my baby atm and yet my belly is there and growing more each week. Hard to hide my belly now. So baby is making it known bubs is there. Yet I’m in denial about bubs. I tried telling my mum the other night and I was doing the ugly cry. But I hate being so honest with her cos she would of driven 7hrs which is how far away she lives just to be with me. She said she would but I felt bad cos my parents don’t have the money to do that atm. So I’m trying to suck it up. I’m a counsellor by profession so I should know how to get outta these feelings but I can’t practise what I preach atm ? just low atm.

Aww I'm sorry this has been such a rough pregnancy on you. And it definitely sounds like you've got alot going on. If it makes you feel any better I can honestly say I've never bonded with any of my babies during pregnancy. Yes every pregnancy and baby is a blessing but sometimes it can be very hard also. Physically, mentally and emotionally. Make sure to take care of yourself. Don't beat yourself up if you're not feeling particularly great about everything right now. And if you need to rant a little about it rant! We're all in this together. This should be your safe space. This should be everyone's safe place to come to for love and support. ? Hang in there mama!