

I’m truly starting to see this now... this week has been awful. Every afternoon has been meltdown city and it’s lasted for hours. I swear I almost broke down myself a little while ago. Luckily, the sink worked again. 😪 I don’t know if him not feeling well has had something to do with it or not, but gosh it’s been rough and just getting worse.
I hope to be able to put into words one day what it’s like to sit and watch him as he rocks back and forth crying and slamming his head against the couch (luckily the wall has only happened twice so far), or how he just walks around crying and falling in the floor as if he’s in pain but nothing makes him happy and he doesn’t even want us to hold him or touch him... On his good days, I am constantly questioning whether he truly has autism or not, but on his bad days, I feel there’s no doubt.
I want to be able to describe what it’s like not knowing for sure and constantly wondering if you’re handling each situation appropriately or not. As we wait for his official diagnosis, we stress and we worry and we continue to help him through therapy with as much patience and understanding as we can while we learn how to help him which turns out is a whole other way of parenting.
Every mother has watched her child suffer at some point and been unable to help them. That is probably the most difficult part of parenting and it’s what we struggle with on every bad day. 😪
I'm right there with you, we are going through the assessment stage too (find out in 3 weeks) and bad days feel like I'm going to break then good days have me wondering if it's maybe just me.
Big hugs mumma, it's a super tough journey. You sound like an awesome mum X
@itsamemario, you deleted your post before I could hit send but this is my comment: I don’t know if this answers your question but this is my answer.
My son is 7 and he knows race and color. Why? Because he himself comes from a family that is multi racial and because he has already experienced racism. I also believe as his mother it’s my job to teach him color and the cold hard truth about society. He knows what’s going on in this world. I’d be hurting him if I allowed him to blindly walk out...
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
So, our downstairs neighbors have been banging on the ceiling every time our son walks. It scares him every time because it’s loud and he can feel it. I’m about over it. He’s TWO. He’s learning how to walk quietly but it’s hard for him. After about the 10th bang, I usually just put him in his high chair or his room. But I shouldn’t have to trap my kid in his own house bc of rude grown adults.
Question. I just left my husband for cheating and now hes been harassing me. Hes threatening to come get our son. I dont care if he sees his son but I'm not comfortable with him leaving with him bc hes never taken care of him a day In his life and he might use him against me. Am I wrong for feeling this way??
i’m honestly so upset. today was my boyfriend & i’s anniversary & i thought we would spend the whole day together but he decided to leave to go be with his friends. am i selfish for wanting him the whole day? :/
@amk212, thank you and you too girl!! ❤️❤️