I feel like my life is a nightmare
For over a year now I've just been living in a bad dream. And I will never wake up from it.
I've never seen a woman handle a situation like this with as much grace maturity and composure as you have
If anyone deserves peace in life it is those like you that do what's right even when life is truly unfair
I know the future will be much brighter for you considering the way you have handled everything thrown your way, hang in there you have a lot of good coming your way
Thanks for the recap; yes, well done.
I just needed to vent. I can't handle the run down every time I post. Though I realize it doesn't make sense to those who don't know the backstory. So I apologize for that.
I know its likely the motion he filed will be dismissed without a trial, but the closer I get to the court date the more and more I'm freaking out. I'm trying my best not to give him the power to hurt me anymore. But it's impossible. The best I can do is not let him know its working.
He's a narcissist. He cares only about himself. It's as if the 10 years we were together didn't happen, I'm just the enemy, but yet he uses all the personal info he has about me to push just the right buttons to make me melt down.
And I just found out about things (through things posted to the public on the internet) that happened while we were married that I didn't know about. And I find myself wondering who it was I was married to. Certainly not the man I thought he was. A con artist. And a manipulator. Everything was a lie. My whole life was a lie.
It's very difficult to stay positive. I'm dealing with a lot of depression and anxiety because of this. I've been to the dr and will be in counseling soon.
As always, thank you for all the support. I think I'm going to try to get some sleep.
Thanks baby. It just seems like I keep going downhill further and further.
We go to court a week from today for his 2nd attempt at changing the visitation order.
The nightmare is that it happened. And I have to deal with this lying cheating narcissist because he's my daughters father.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
TWW!!
2dpo and on the tww journey. Anyone on the same dpo or close? Haven't decided if I will test at 12dpo or just wait and see if she shows up!!
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
Thanks ladies. I can't say enough how much all the support I've received from bb has helped through all of this.