There's not very many people who I can talk about my feelings with so I'm hoping for support and love from here..

Hugs.....I'm at work and I'm trying so hard not to Crack a tear. This is so sad. Alot of people take their mothers for granted. I wish you courage and strength. Xoxo

I'm so sorry! Hugs ???

I know exactly how you feel ?

I'm so sorry,. Sending you hugs & prayers ????

Thank you!! ❤

@mtl, I will look at it. Thank you!

I'm so so sorry, sweetie. I understand the pain of losing a parent. Today is the 1yr anniversary of the day I lost my dad. He was only 63. I miss him terribly, and the only source of comfort I have is that I feel him everywhere (see my post if you want; I just wrote about it). Those we love never really leave; they walk beside us everyday. My only advice is to let yourself have whatever day comes; it's ok to bawl your eyes out and not leave your bed sometimes. Wishing you peace and light.

I'm so sorry I can't imagine your pain. Praying you find peace.

I am so sorry for your loss. It is so hard to adapt to life without someone so important and special to you. I can relate as my sister just passed a few weeks ago, and my father passed in 2005. Sending prayers and thoughts your way. ❤️

Thank you all for the kind words! They mean a lot and help me in a lot of ways.

@heather, the first dream I had of my mom was in a healthy state but she had no hair. She was so happy and we hugged. I remember it like it was real. I felt like I regret asking for that dream because it hurt so much worse but after a little over a year, I would love to have that dream again. The pain never goes away we just learn to deal with it. That's the hardest part for me because I'm not the same person as I was. My patience is very thin these days and I just feel like a sad person.

ETA, and I'm very sorry for all of you that have lost a parent! It's never easy and I'm glad that I have ppl that understand this pain. ❤

I feel the same way. My mother passed when I was in 9th grade due to an accident. I always feel saddened by the fact that she's missed so much of my life, and will never get the chance to meet her grandchildren.

I took a grief and loss course in college, and they said the remembrance of our lost ones resurface again after a major life event, as we feel they should have been here to experience with us. It's so true.

This made me cry. I'm deeply sorry for your loss. Praying for you that things get easier. I'm positive that your Mom knows just how much you love her.

I'm so sorry hun. Hugs and prayers for you and for your family at this devastating time. ?

*Hugs*

I'm so sorry Momma! Keeping you in my prayers❤

Just know she's not hurting anymore, and she will ALWAYS be with you wherever you go!

I'm so sorry for your loss. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to message me. My dad died suddenly in November of 2015 and then my MIL who was one of my best friends lost her battle with cancer and died in February of 2016. Both losses hit me so hard and there are still days when I don't want to get out of bed. Every day of this pregnancy has been sad for me knowing that this daughter will never get to meet her grandpa and nana who both would have loved her so much. I'm also sad that my oldest daughter only got 1 year with them. She won't be able to remember how much they both adored her. Sometimes I dream about my dad. It's wonderful until I wake up and it feels like I lost him all over again.

Hugs ❤️

Lots of hugs beautiful!! She is always with u ?

I'm so sorry ? you are going through such an incredibly tough time... I hope she visits you soon and is able to guide you through this.. I can't imagine your pain ❤️

Hugs. ❤ I'm sure she is with you always.

Hugs and prayers. I'm so sorry.

Your post was so beautiful and heartbreaking, I'm so sorry for your loss. Hopefully she will visit you in your dreams so you can find comfort ? try thinking about all of the good memories the two of you shared and everytime your thinking of her or want to talk to her write what you would tell her down in a journal. I'll keep you in my prayers hun ??

Hugs, momma. She is always with you.