So just feel like venting. Breast feeding is so demanding. With my daughter I was only able to for 3 weeks because I was exclusively pumping. She couldn't latch. And was barely producing anything. I felt my mental health failing. I felt like a failure. I felt trapped. I couldn't bond with my daughter. Formula was the best option for us. Now with my son im trying again. He won't latch often. So I'm mostly pumping. My supply is decently better than with my daughter. But I still feel emotionally drained. Because I'm already taking care of him and his sister and any relaxation time I would have for myself I use to pump for him. I'm gonna try and breast feed longer this time but if I feel myself becoming mentally unstable again. I'll probably stop. I'll just have to remind myself that fed is best. And I'm not a failure.