Is it bad that I feel like I need to love my newborn a little bit more? She’s missing out on having her dad around. My 3yr old had him around 24/7

tattoo mommies let me see your sweet tattoos this is my right arm its a rose vine going around my arm and on my forearm i have two owls in love connected to it .
on my left side of my belly I have a dragon ;)
My water broke this morning around 3 something. I got up to pee two different times and it started running down my leg. How long until I go into labor?
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

Still trying to wrap my head around all this. Told my boyfriend. He’s just as anxious as i am. Ahhhh.
I don't think there should be a different in which one you love more. You might need to show one more love. But you shouldn't love one more then the other. Idk I only got one kid.