Biggest Baby on BB

I know I don't have the biggest baby here but I know he's right up there.

My back is killing me 😖😖

Anyways,

stupid question but I was watching vaginal births on YouTube & all I see is the moms screaming and screaming pushing until the baby comes out.

Do you always scream? Or are there woman who are silent?? Lol idk stupid question but I got scared watching. 😭😩😂

I think I might have a baby carrier buying addiction ????

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

I think i want another baby