So I think I have severe depression everything just hit me I feel like I can't breathe anymore I feel so overwhelmed and stressed out I been trying my best to keep it in but I can't anymore I'm trying to hold on but I can't I can't pretend to be happy when I'm not I feel so trap in my own home but everybody else thinks I'm ok or they just don't care I can't talk to anyone because I feel like I'm gonna burst into tears and this feeling won't go away and my own boyfriend thinks I'm fine or he just don't know what to do I wish everything would be nice I'm just tired of being home all the time I want my own car so I can take my daughters out to the park or something but I can't I want a better life for my daughters but its so hard I just want everything to be ok but it's not I hate to admit it but it is I have thought about what it would be like to see the beach or seeing a statue or doing something fun but its all a damn fantasy look at me what have I done to deserve this all I just want to show my girls the world but I can't do that if I'm on my feet I'm trying to get a job but everything is sooo far all u see is just trees an a road that's it I just wish I can do better for them all I see is people having so much fun with family or friends and it makes me feel so much worse😭💔😭💔😭💔😭💔😭💔😭💔