So. In about 4 hours I go In and I will be told if I am having a baby today. I am terrified and paranoid and cannot get bad thoughts out of my head. I can't sleep because I keep imagining what's going to happen and none of the scenarios I think abo it are good. I keep thinking I'm going to lose my baby boy. I don't know why I can't get that thought out of my head but it's driving me crazy and I can't sleep. As for now my baby is fine. Wiggling like crazy and letting me know he's still in there and he's okay. My baby has to be okay. I don't know what i would do if I lost a child. Part of me wants to avoid the doctor because I'm scared of something being wrong but there's also a part of me who wants this to be over with. I just want my baby boy out and in my arms safe and healthy so I can stop worrying.