Hey mamas. I haven't been on here for a while. I've been dealing with my son being in and out of the…

Hey mamas.

I haven't been on here for a while. I've been dealing with my son being in and out of the hospital almost took him to Seattle to the children's hospital. He got tubes in his ears finally. His dad has been in and out of his life once again. Actually he got his ex gf now gf again pregnant well she is barely 2 months sober off the meth. She doesn't have custody of her 3 kids because of the same problem. His dad always tells me I look good an that he misses me. And honestly you can just tell the way he looks at me that he still cares. But I can't go back down that road I have come so far from the verbal abuse from him. I'm working fulltime. Plus side jobs. Being mom fulltime. Also I'm going to school to gedt my bachelor's in psychology for addictions and not to toot my own horn but I'm killing it right now. I feel so proud of myself. But then again I feel like I'm also failing my son because he isn't getting his relationship with his dad but it's his dad's choice I have tried multiple times for them to have something and I honestly have just stopped trying. I'm trying to get into my own place. Keep up on my bills. Get my car worked on. Get new tires on my car when I get my taxes back.. it's been full of tears. Sleepless nights.. things that I wish I could've changed. I'm working on me with my anxiety and depression. I'm going to the gym constantly. I'm doing better but still working there.