Finally having a period. This is a blessing and a curse. I haven’t had a period yet and it now makes 3 full months being off birth control. I had to take hormones to have a period. Now I can start all my fertility treatments and maybe they will help me.

I really want a baby, my husband says he wants 5! He was just saying he didn’t want kids yet and now he’s like you gotta start popping them out! I love it but it’s still hard because I know it’s going to take us a long time to have a baby of our own it will be impossible for me to give him the big family he wants. It’s been weighing on me the last week. I feel like a failure. My mother had 8 children with 7 different men and I can’t get pregnant it’s just so frustrating. I see people who aren’t ready and who don’t take care of their children already and are pregnant! It is infuriating! I don’t know if I can handle this much longer. My depression is worsening and my anger is getting crazy. I snapped at my husband for asking me a simple question.

Prayers please and baby dust. Trying to make a human is very stressful but fun and you don’t get it until you have to do it.

God bless all you beautiful, strong women with your pregnancy and who have kids already.