I find it beyond beautiful i truly do, for the unwritten bond of love my daughter has alit in my soul; a flame forever and never to end.. That flame started something in myself. Call it desire, awakening, understanding if you will. This flicker burns with life to love myself more than it ever has. As I sat huging my sweetest girl I let that hug wrap abit further around myself.. I thanked my body for carrying me thru this day, for not giving up. I want to learn and grow together. As she grows so will I. An inseprable bond united with universal purpose. I hope to show her what its like to take time for yourself not just tell her. When I tell her shes beautiful and can achive her dreams. I can stand beside her in love of myself and think I still dream every day and night and I have done much. I Look at my scars from my youth and stretch marks and tired eyes with acceptance. Why? well my boyfriend put it perfect.. What he loves most about me are my scars they are amap of my life my strength and survival..💙( bless him).

I have many pages of things I can work on achieve, or concquor ( as we know laundry never ends haa) . Honestly tho if I dont learn to love myself thru those things they stay as things, tasks, burdons, struggles and " not enough" .awhile ago I started writting on my bathroom mirror small quotes or self affirmations. Along with recently a list of what I want to accomplish that day. I write all i want to do thats in my mind in no order.. After i take time to put them in order1-11 lets say.. Its interesting what i hold highest. In the end my goal isnt to get them all done. But if i get one thing donei cross it off or all things done its all crossed.. At the end of the day I am taking time to look at what i have done and heck alot of days arnt just nothing.. Being kinder to my heart has moved me to be more to the ones I cherish most.. Haa lengthy I know. Just i see so many mommies being down on themselves I am bad for this too.. But i can honestly say thedays are lighter when i take asecond to love myself.. Include myself.. Acknowledge myself. ;) light and love my beautiful ladies light andlove