Yesterday I was laying down and I happened to reach up my back to scratch, when I was taking my hand…

Yesterday I was laying down and I happened to reach up my back to scratch, when I was taking my hand out of my shirt I felt something on my back. I've had a mole there for as long as I can remember. But it felt dry to the touch. As I was feeling it, what felt like a scab came off. I took a picture because I couldn't see what was going on and my boyfriend was sleeping. What I remember to be a brown mole now has a black dot in the middle. A changing mole is terrifying. I have spent last night and all day today, scared out of my mind and I have an appointment to go see a doctor in a clinic tomorrow. I haven't been able to stop worrying about it. I looked at my daughter today and I picked her up and kissed her and hugged her and I cried because I'm so affraid of dying and leaving her before she's ready for me to leave her. I love her so much it hurts. Physically hurts. It feels like someone is sitting on my chest. All this to say that if you ever have doubt about your health that you should go get yourself checked right away. Don't put yourself on the back burner because your children, your babies, need you. Wish me luck ttomorrow and take care of yourselves. ♡