37 weeks and so depressed.. Like first trimester hormones came back stronger than ever...i feel completely miserable…

But these thought have not made me clean the house or anything like that and I try to eat once a day and always drink water

@sami.jane1, yeah all you can do is hope and pray. You have to convince your self. Why does my son need to be fed..? So he can grow and develop..also SO YOU DONT COME TO HIS ROOM AND SEE HIM DEAD FROM STARVATION. Why should I change my sons diaper he will be okay sitting int for a little longer? NO HIS ASS WILL START BLEEDING AND HE WILL SCREAM IN PAIN AND THEN ITS GONNA GET INFECTED AND HES GONNA DIE. At one point I didn’t even care about my daughters well being. Then I realized I’d go to jail lose my husband lose my soon to be newborn. These kinds of thoughts have given me enough motivation to get up and feed her and change her.

@crystal.newman my exact thoughts and worries...

@sami.jane1, yeah I feel the exact same way. It’s so hard. I’m in so much pain I’m always so tired. I have no desire to eat or drink. I just want to sleep. For some reason I never sleep well at night and the only time I sleep any kind of good is during the day. People keep telling me it will get better but I think it will get extremely worse because of post partum depression.

@crystal.newman that's where I'm at.. I'm forcing myself to get up and let him out of bed to play and eat and get a clean diaper because I don't want to get in trouble... But it's so damn hard and I feel so bad.

And by make her food I just heated up those little gerber meal things.

@sami.jane1, as long as your child is being fed 3 times a day or maybe 4 times for a snack or something. It will be okay. I went through a period where I would set alarms of her feedings. I would make her food let her roam for maybe an hour or 2 and then went to sleep. It was so bad at one point I wasn’t feeding her very well. But emotionally forced myself to make sure she ate and played for a least a little while. I couldn’t risk getting in trouble for neglect or something especially being pregnant with another one

@crystal.newman oh yeah. I'm beyond there. I'll let him cry in his crib longer than normal, or I'll just lay on the couch while he plays.. I feel like I can't do anything. Not even for myself, but for him too. And since their dad is in the military, he's not usually here.. So it's all left for me to do..

Are you at the point you don’t even wanna take care of your son? I reached that point

Hang in there girl! Things will get easier. I know exactly how you feel