The more my body starts to get ready for this baby to come...the more anxious & nervous I get 😐😖…

The more my body starts to get ready for this baby to come...the more anxious & nervous I get 😐😖 like I'm not ready....physically. My job is too demanding , I have trust issues with who watches my child, we are getting ready to move 2 months after he arrives, my fiancé is about to start a new job that might hinder us from getting the place we REALLY want , sometimes I feel my relationship is going to fail because me being pregnant is changing everything , all of my support is 200 miles away, wondering if anything will go wrong with delivery, making sure I don't hurt my fiancé's feelings during delivery....our current apartment isn't even physically ready:: nothing the baby is going to be using has been washed yet, the crib hasn't been set up , hospital bag hasn't been packed ....then the juveniles at my job are getting more and more difficult to deal with within a 12 hr shift ....my fiancé seeing me in pain (head hurting, BH contractions, sleepiness) makes me feel bad...& then to top it all off, keeping my medications hidden from everybody & knowing I might be on more....

I just really don't know what to do .....sorry, I had to rant.