It's been so hard. I miss being with my baby's father so much but our relationship was very toxic and I know I did the right thing by getting out of it I try reminding myself that but then I go to bed and wake up missing him. I just wish we could of been happy and be together so we could be a family with our baby it's all I ever wanted in life. I get that we don't have to be together to be parents but I just feel like it's so much better when you're actually together in a happy loving relationship and I never wanted my child to grow up bouncing from house to house. This hurts so much.