What's Xmas about to you guus ? Family time or presents? My big brother is being a little bum . He says he can't make it to the lunch at the restaurant but mom and I are willing to pay . He says no don't want us to spend our money . But before that I was msging him saying I don't have any gifts for him and his pregnant wife who he doesn't want me to tell my own husband about. He was upset that I couldn't save us for a 5$ gift. I explained to him that I'm not at work and the income I get is just enough for what has to be payed until I start back . Mom and I were willing to sacrifice our bit of money just so we can all enjoy a meal and be together . He was to stuck up on not getting anything from me that he didn't realized all we wanted was for the whole family to be together . And Every time we do get gifts there's always a comment from him or he leaves it by us and never bothers to come back it . So I had to tell my dad to make sure when we get gifts to mark that it's from Santa and not from one of us . I'm trying this new thing to forgive and forget but man is it even hard . I couldn't sleep because my brother made me feel guilty for no reason now that I think about it because I was willing to pay for him but the truth is he doesn't want to come with us or even be around us it seems . Guess I want be seeing much of my niece/nephew in the new year . Oh I don't even know if I should bother telling my brother I'll be working on his birthday January 1st .