Is it bad that after 7 years (Feb 10th) of being together and talking about marriage I don't want to…

Is it bad that after 7 years (Feb 10th) of being together and talking about marriage I don't want to get married. My dad and his wife kept ruining it whenever I bring it up by saying go to a justice of peace. Are you serious? Am I not that important enough you can't walk your daughter down the isle or help her find a wedding dress? I don't think I've been more hurt then ever. This is every girls dream and the man I grew up knowing asn't father won't walk me down the isle. Even if I did have a wedding I guess I'm walking down by myself since it's at my house. What is wrong this picture and him? I went to both of his weddings even though I dislike his wife since I get critized about my kids and parenting skills. Like shut up you don't have kids and I'm asking my dad questions, at least I'm thinking this and not saying it to her lol.